integrating's Diaryland
Diary
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"how did i get here"
Well that's it for the journal entries. I thought I had more journals than that. Maybe it just seemed like it. Most of it was edited because most of it included my life with my ex who I don't want to remember anything about. We broke up in June 2010. Good riddance. Glad to be away from him. Anyway, now that I have gleened what I wanted out of my journals I'm faced with the daunting task of writing again. It's been a long time. I used to just randomly pick a word from the dictionary and start writing. It's not that easy now. Now...I realize I have become exactly what I wanted and now I don't want it anymore. I wanted to be alone. I am alone. I didn't want to work anymore because I could not deal with the world at large. Now I'm on disability for mental and physical reasons. Now I am left with myself. Nothing to do but hate myself for the things I've done to those I love so much in order to become this recluse. Now what do I do...
9:13 a.m. - 01.22.12
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