integrating's Diaryland Diary

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04.24.22 - Nothing in particular
04.22.22 - Still punching
04.18.22 - smoking out in the van
03.27.22 - ACME
12.30.21 - I'm alive
03.21.21 - I'M FINALLY GOING HOME
01.28.21 - I'm not doing well.
11.04.20 - i called the crisis line and it went to voicemail. story of my life.
09.22.20 - I've been catfished
09.10.20 - TEXAS OR BUST
09.10.20 - txt to Kris
09.09.20 - You better believe it.
09.07.20 - texting with my counselor, Eli
09.07.20 - texting with AJ
09.06.20 - texting with Nathan
09.02.20 - Here's My Card
08.26.20 - MENTAL JENGA
08.26.20 - MENTAL JENGA
08.26.20 - What is a spotless mind?
08.26.20 - Home Invasion
08.26.20 - Home Invasion
08.25.20 - it was good to get out today
08.24.20 - Home Invasion
08.23.20 - Home Invasion
08.23.20 - Home Invasion
07.23.20 - [Witness the paranoia]
06.23.20 - NEXT GOAL or Taco Tuesday
06.09.20 - i don't care
06.02.20 - mama loves sasha
05.25.20 - Memorial Day
05.22.20 - nice try cupcake
05.15.20 - fierce: having or displaying an intense or ferocious aggressiveness
04.10.20 - I made it!
04.06.20 - One plate. One fork. I fantasized about killing you.
03.31.20 - WHEN LIFE WAS COOL
03.30.20 - people are weird
03.16.20 - Stand Over There Please
02.09.20 - The Final Fuck Off
02.04.20 - There's no place like home.
01.26.20 - I'm dreaming....Are you sure?
01.25.20 - ZZZAP metal playlist
01.22.20 - CHLOROFORM playlist
01.21.20 - Chloroform
01.03.20 - I'm looking at an apartment today.
12.31.19 - Don't forget that I can't remember.
12.31.19 - Don't forget that I can't remember.
12.28.19 - I just know I'm full of an alien species, bent on making me their host*ess.
12.27.19 - first christmas without her..... (Part 1)
12.26.19 - I don't remember writing last entry
12.24.19 - merry christmas eve 😞
12.18.19 - where am i?
01.01.18 - HELP ME GET BACK TO TX
10.05.17 - fuck you especially
10.01.17 - being bi-polar sucks. it's awesome
09.29.17 - did it again
07.21.17 - integrating once again
11.08.16 - back to TX...please
10.29.16 - saw AJ/ truck sucks
10.23.16 - identity thief still in action
10.21.16 - deer on the road
10.02.16 - d-land!!!
10.01.16 - didn't eat the friggin cheese
09.30.16 - What's FYI?
09.24.16 - intro to Kris and AJ
09.24.16 - PTSD
09.21.16 - Sometimes ya just gotta let it roll.
09.17.16 - Not a good idea
09.01.16 - being bi-polar sucks
08.20.16 - observing everything with logic
08.18.16 - keep marching on
08.11.16 - woe is me
08.05.16 - I have no friends
07.24.16 - Tada!
07.19.16 - fruitcake, nutjob, bat shit crazy, etc
07.17.16 - Everything Can't Be Perfect, that's what my mom said.
06.25.16 - goin to Montana
06.22.16 - Je suis une reine du drame!
06.20.16 - dad=mental
06.18.16 - should've listened to your heart
06.14.16 - they're going to miss their maid
06.10.16 - kris hates my father
06.06.16 - do not be deceived, little girl
06.06.16 - freaking leash
06.03.16 - one day in another galaxy
06.02.16 - me and lisa veryveryvery stoned
05.24.16 - "another one bites the dust".....Queen
05.19.16 - "flies in the vasoline".....Stone Temple Pilots
05.05.16 - the romantics....."What I Like About You"
04.16.16 - Hating
04.13.16 - if she can wear an insane clown posse shirt to church, then i can wear my slippers
04.03.16 - "tuesday's gone with the wind".....Lynyrd Skynyrd
03.30.16 - "beverly hills".....Weezer
03.29.16 - "i wanna be sedated".....The Ramones
03.28.16 - "glycerine".....Bush
03.21.16 - "so lonely".....The Police
02.29.16 - One in the morning
02.28.16 - "glycerine".....Bush
02.26.16 - "mouth".....Bush
02.23.16 - alert the presses
02.21.16 - reminders...
02.16.16 - R.I.P. King
02.10.16 - "beverly hills".....Weezer
02.03.16 - "in limbo"....Radiohead
01.26.16 - ooh, no music
01.18.16 - "undone the sweater song"...Weezer
01.17.16 - "wild is the wind".....David Bowie
01.01.16 - who got hit in the head and almost lost an eye by an inch by roman candles last night?
12.31.15 - "undone the sweater song"...Weezer....New Year's Eve
12.26.15 - Chrismas Eve
12.20.15 - "plush".....Stone Temple Pilots
12.19.15 - "do it"...Nelly Furtado
12.17.15 - "dead and bloated".....Stone Temple Pilots
12.15.15 - "there is no rose of swych vertu".....Medieval Babes
12.14.15 - "the snake".....Medieval Babes
12.05.15 - "creep".....Stone Temple Pilots
11.24.15 - "scoff".....Nirvana
11.23.15 - "colorblind".....Counting Crows
11.21.15 - "what if".....Creed
11.08.15 - "shelf in the room".....Days of the New
11.07.15 - "thirty-three".....Smashing Pumpkins
11.06.15 - "the down town".....Days Of The New
11.04.15 - "go your own way".....Fleetwood Mac
10.22.15 - -
10.17.15 - "i'm having dreams about you"....Daniel Johnston
10.15.15 - AJ has written a total of 3 songs and has made videos of them all.
10.09.15 - "shut-up and smile"....Bowling For Soup
10.07.15 - "really might be gone".....Bowling For Soup
10.04.15 - "shove it".....Deftones
09.23.15 - "it's on!"....Korn
09.18.15 - "when the levee breaks"...Led Zeppelin
09.14.15 - "going to california"....Led Zeppelin
09.09.15 - "tomorrow"....Silverchair
09.05.15 - "graduate"....Third Eye Blind
09.03.15 - "leave me out"....Silverchair
09.01.15 - "love buzz"....Nirvana
08.27.15 - "1979"....Smashing Pumpkins
08.24.15 - "where boys fear to tred"....Smashing Pumpkins
08.20.15 - "israel's son"....Silverchair
08.18.15 - "muzzle"....Smashing Pumpkins
08.14.15 - "interstate love song"....Stone Temple Pilots
08.02.15 - "higher"....Creed
07.27.15 - "do it"...Nelly Furtado
07.22.15 - "rooster"....Alice in Chains
07.05.15 - "beautiful night"....Burden Brothers
07.03.15 - "zombie".....The Cranberries
07.01.15 - song repeating in my head from the radio
06.29.15 - "float on".....Modest Mouse
06.25.15 - oh jesus christ
06.24.15 - pain
06.23.15 - drama part lV
06.22.15 - Going to the Dr part lll
06.22.15 - Going to the Dr part ll
06.22.15 - Going to the Dr
06.18.15 - "i've committed murder"....Macy Gray
06.12.15 - "old man"....Neil Young
06.10.15 - "still"....Burden Brothers
06.02.15 - "yellow"....Coldplay
05.22.15 - "scars"....Papa Roach
05.22.15 - "miss you"....Rolling Stones
05.20.15 - "big black chunk"....song I created myself
05.15.15 - "amazing"....Aerosmith
04.27.15 - "five"...Joan Jett and The Blackhearts
04.20.15 - "what goes around"....Justin Timberlake
04.17.15 - cryin'.....Aerosmith
04.09.15 - No music playing. Don't want to disturb anybody.
04.07.15 - "what goes around"....Justin Timberlake
04.03.15 - "brown sugar"....The Rolling Stones
03.31.15 - "god of wine"....Third Eye Blind
03.22.15 - "kid A"....Radiohead
03.16.15 - "the background"....Third Eye Blind
03.13.15 - "pork & beans"....Weezer
03.12.15 - "guess what?"....Cazwell & Luciana
03.09.15 - "down in a hole".....Alice in Chains
03.02.15 - "fool in the rain"....Led Zeppelin
02.26.15 - "how's it going to be".....Third Eye Blind
02.23.15 - "once"....Pearl Jam
02.19.15 - "right turn"....Alice in Chains
02.18.15 - "let her cry"....Hootie and The Blowfish
02.17.15 - "memories"....Weezer
02.15.15 - "hey jealousy"....Gin Blossoms
02.05.15 - "pinch me".....Barenaked Ladies
01.11.15 - "the national anthem"....Radiohead
01.09.15 - i'll be seeing you
01.06.15 - help me with diary problems
01.02.15 - I think my dad's gone crazy
12.31.14 - "walk on the wild side"...Lou Reed
12.27.14 - I cannot read the diaries help me!
12.23.14 - "creep"...Radiohead
12.23.14 - "treefingers"....Radiohead
12.23.14 - my email addy
12.23.14 - Trouble in Diaryland
12.23.14 - NO NOTES
12.18.14 - The Fault in our Stars
12.18.14 - "pure massacre"...Silverchair
12.14.14 - "muzzle"....Smashing Pumpkins
12.12.14 - "funeral girl"....Daniel Johnston
12.06.14 - "five"...Joan Jett and The Blackhearts
12.01.14 - "say it ain't so"....Weezer
11.27.14 - Happy Thanksgiving
11.05.14 - the whir of the fan
10.30.14 - "rooster"....Alice in Chains
10.24.14 - "flowers in december".....Mazzy Star
10.16.14 - "out go the lights"....Aerosmith
10.08.14 - "say it right"...Nelly Furtado
10.06.14 - "she's my baby"....Mazzy Star
10.05.14 - "jeremy"....Pearl Jam
10.03.14 - family feud in the living room
10.03.14 - "tonight, tonight"....Smashing Pumpkins
09.23.14 - "i wonder"....Blind Melon
09.22.14 - "going on"....Tsunami Bomb
09.20.14 - "evenflow"....Pearl Jam
09.17.14 - "heaven beside you"....Alice in Chains
09.10.14 - "all good things"....Nelly Furtado
09.08.14 - "on the radio....remember the days".....Nelly Furtado
09.03.14 - "do it"....Nelly Furtado
09.02.14 - "memories"....Weezer
08.23.14 - "start me up" ....Rolling Stones
08.20.14 - "everything zen"....Bush
08.20.14 - "jungle love"...Steve Miller Band
08.18.14 - "beverly hills"...Weezer
08.12.14 - "heroes"....David Bowie
08.07.14 - the whir of the computer
07.30.14 - silence
07.22.14 - David Bowie
07.20.14 - "been caught stealing"....Jane's Addiction
07.19.14 - "real wild child"....Iggy Pop
07.19.14 - "real wild child"....Iggy Pop
07.18.14 - "everlong".....Foo Fighters
- "the places you have come to fear the most"...Dashboard Confessional
- David Bowie
- "tonight, tonight"....Smashing Pumpkins
- "skin"......Madonna
- "substitute for love"...Madonna
- "five".....Joan Jett and The Blackhearts
- "rooster"....Alice in Chains
- "yellow"....Coldplay
- "memories"....Weezer
- "Best Deceptions"...Dashboard Confessional.
- nervous silence
- "Love Remains the Same"...Gavin Rossdale
- "So I Thought"....Flyleaf
- "nutshell"....Alice in Chains
- "skin"......Madonna
04.30.14 - silence
- "five".....Joan Jett and The Blackhearts
04.16.14 - "Tuesday's Gone"....Lynyrd Skynyrd
04.08.14 - the sound of my own tears
04.07.14 - "Wild Horses"....Rolling Stones
03.29.14 - "X.Y.U."--Smashing Pumpkins
03.28.14 - "Heaven Beside You"--Alice in Chains
03.07.14 - "Tones of Home"---Blind Melon
- "More Human Than Human"....White Zombie
03.01.14 - Born Free--Kid Rock
02.28.14 - Rise Up--Cypress Hill
02.28.14 - just silence
02.27.14 - Kid Rock
02.24.14 - Kris' rage
02.17.14 - Trynn Finda Way--Nelly Furtado
02.14.14 - The Climb---No Doubt
02.12.14 - Animal--Neon Trees
02.06.14 - Colorblind--Counting Crows
02.02.14 - I Stand Alone--Godsmack
01.28.14 - Hey Jealousy--Gin Blossoms
01.25.14 - Far Behind--Candlebox again!
01.25.14 - Far Behind--Candlebox
01.24.14 - here come the rooster
01.21.14 - where is the time going
- babaloo
01.08.14 - haiku
01.07.14 - gripes about the cell phone
01.05.14 - gotta vent
12.27.13 - happy holidays
12.23.13 - these are a few of our favorite things
12.21.13 - i don't know what you'd call this
12.20.13 - Pic of Kris
12.20.13 - Pic of AJ
12.11.13 - proof of insanity
12.10.13 - *Exhale*
12.06.13 - kinky panties
12.01.13 - Oh I'm so thankful for my Bitch of a Mother
11.24.13 - going to kingsland
11.22.13 - Aunt Linda
11.18.13 - The bitch is....
11.15.13 - Pearl Jam
11.09.13 - dentist dun dun dun
11.06.13 - dental issues
10.16.13 - cup of love?
10.05.13 - ptsd ain't for everybody
10.02.13 - not much goin on
10.02.13 - gov't fuck down
09.23.13 - gov't still sucks
09.10.13 - Ants are little assholes
09.05.13 - use fucking birth control if you don't want kids
08.26.13 - waste of space
08.22.13 - isolation
07.27.13 - comin down from FL
06.26.13 - HISTORICAL DAY!
06.20.13 - Just Antother Pain In My Ass
06.19.13 - Hold On Kiddies
06.02.13 - a glutton for punishment
05.31.13 - hye AH!
05.29.13 - not MT bound
05.28.13 - retardation
05.27.13 - ghetto move out
05.26.13 - considering
05.14.13 - SHUT THE FUCK UP
05.14.13 - no thank you
05.13.13 - prepared for nothing
05.10.13 - wishes and stars
05.10.13 - storms a 'comin
05.02.13 - hurt
04.23.13 - in the dark
04.21.13 - nice day. get out in it
04.18.13 - precious and few are these moments we two can share
04.14.13 - How bout some honesty here
04.11.13 - out of the loop
03.31.13 - happy easter
03.30.13 - some good advice
03.28.13 - buffalo nickel
03.26.13 - wah
03.25.13 - some days just suck ass
03.23.13 - god i miss aj
03.18.13 - overkill
03.09.13 - yes, there is a Fuck You Button
03.08.13 - yep
03.06.13 - yippee!
03.02.13 - checkmate
02.24.13 - letting go
02.20.13 - hope so
02.17.13 - butterfly
02.15.13 - grief and remorse
02.13.13 - hot mess
02.08.13 - BS
02.06.13 - Angel
02.03.13 - hut hut
02.02.13 - crybaby
02.01.13 - oobla dee
01.27.13 - I'm 18 yrs old!
01.17.13 - am I doomed for the clink?
01.13.13 - overdosing myself
01.10.13 - stop it!
01.08.13 - get ready
01.07.13 - damn old bandera county
01.06.13 - thorn in my mind
01.03.13 - damn boot
12.31.12 - Happy New Year!
12.22.12 - Buggers to you
12.22.12 - Family Time
12.21.12 - bone spur
12.17.12 - Really?
12.01.12 - links to my other diaries
12.01.12 - whatever
11.27.12 - smile
11.20.12 - Happy Holidays
11.16.12 - Dryad and Dragonfly
11.05.12 - 2003
11.04.12 - love is a snowmobile
11.02.12 - i got scammed part 1
11.02.12 - got scammed!
11.01.12 - noodles...it's what's for dinner
10.26.12 - severe anxiety
10.24.12 - wtf diaryland
10.20.12 - the letter
10.18.12 - lucky girl
10.10.12 - Hello, I have just returned from hell
08.03.12 - "family hug"
07.18.12 - "life is short"
06.26.12 - "mistakes"
06.21.12 - "just another day in the life"
06.19.12 - "back attack"
06.10.12 - "when you need a friend"
06.09.12 - "back update"
06.07.12 - "never again"
06.06.12 - "injections"
06.04.12 - "real world"
06.02.12 - "yay AJ"
06.01.12 - "birfday"
05.31.12 - "class of 2012"
05.24.12 - "SAD"
05.22.12 - "nothin to it"
05.16.12 - "shut up dad"
05.08.12 - "obsession"
05.07.12 - "chapters? i think not"
05.06.12 - "Beastie Boys Minus One"
05.02.12 - the wheels on the bus
04.26.12 - "beast hunting"
04.20.12 - the dark story of text-enhance
04.20.12 - little blessings
04.20.12 - fuck text enhance
04.13.12 - "a fucking hermit"
04.12.12 - "don't cry"
04.10.12 - "in short"
04.01.12 - "darkness"
03.31.12 - "help!"
03.30.12 - "bad meat, hello"
03.23.12 - "not feeling too skippy"
03.16.12 - "st. paddy's day"
03.12.12 - "a good day"
03.10.12 - "don't yell at me"
03.09.12 - "a piece of paper"
03.08.12 - "and that's the way it is"
03.08.12 - "why"
03.07.12 - "red flag"
03.06.12 - "diaryland is fucked"
03.03.12 - \"sad...\"
02.29.12 - \"freakin\"
02.29.12 - "integrating"
02.29.12 - "i miss kris"
02.29.12 - \"beautifully sad\"
02.28.12 - \"waiting\"
02.27.12 - \"other diaries of mine\"
02.27.12 - "iwearhats"
02.27.12 - \"insomnia\"
02.26.12 - \"Crazy Lane\"
02.25.12 - \"the email\"
02.24.12 - \"two turntables and a microphone\"
02.23.12 - \"just a crutch\"
02.22.12 - \"scream!!!\"
02.20.12 - \"time together\"
02.19.12 - \"marathon\"
02.18.12 - \"happy rd\"
02.18.12 - \"contemplation\"
02.17.12 - \"auntie to the rescue\"
02.17.12 - \"like a cancer\"
02.16.12 - \"up my dosage please\"
02.15.12 - \"leave me alone please\"
02.14.12 - \"sad butterfly\"
02.14.12 - \"harp angel\"
02.13.12 - \"is it sunday yet?\"
02.11.12 - \"blue\"
02.09.12 - \"dreaming of atlantis\"
02.09.12 - \"anxiety\"
02.09.12 - \"i just don't know\"
02.08.12 - \"help a girl out\"
02.08.12 - \"movin on down\"
02.07.12 - "oh daddy"
02.05.12 - "midsummer dream"
02.05.12 - "suggestions please"
02.03.12 - "the beginning of love"
02.02.12 - "the deep wood by david delamare"
02.01.12 - "stairway dreams by josephine wall"
01.31.12 - "just a rant"
01.29.12 - "if only"
01.28.12 - "bussin' it"
01.28.12 - "blue eye in sky"
01.27.12 - "the escalator"...by scott mutter
01.25.12 - "suicide attempt"
01.24.12 - "a little bit about me"
01.22.12 - "how did i get here"
01.21.12 - "before it's too late"
01.20.12 - "words to live by"
01.19.12 - "Christmas 2006"
01.18.12 - "girls like me"
01.17.12 - "i'm just sayin"
01.16.12 - "persevere
01.15.12 - "rainbows"
01.14.12 - "good day"
01.13.12 - "happiness"
01.12.12 - "my world"
01.11.12 - "down time"
01.10.12 - "hold me down"
01.09.12 - "furniture tossing"
01.08.12 - "chrysalis"
01.07.12 - "drowning"
01.06.12 - "against you"